I looked in the mirror this morning and thought to myself "I look pretty good for 40". I wouldn't say I'm skinny and I'm definitely not fat, I'd say I'm just right except for 1 thing...my thighs!
Gosh, if I could just have nice looking thighs. I've struggled with that my whole life and I've struggled with weight issues a good part of it. Not that I was ever obese (with the exception of elementary school...I think I would've been classified as obese then), but I would say I was overweight. I was truly "skinny" 2 times in my life. Once right out of college. That was only because any money I made went straight to rent, utilities, car and insurance. Sometimes I just didn't have much to eat because I didn't have any money to buy food. My husband will attest to this. He was still in college when I had my first apartment (I'm a little older than him). He'd come over to visit and he says he'd look in my refrigerator and think "oh my gosh". Why? Because there wasn't much there. I'd live on yogurt, bagels, pasta and some microwave meals. That's about it. I dropped down to 116. I'm about 5'5.
The second time was after my second child, Brady, was born. Not sure why, but I dropped weight really fast. Again, I fell to about 119 or so. Unreal and I knew it wouldn't last. And it didn't!
One day, when I was at that 116 right out of college, I was at my dad's house. My grandma was there and we were outside getting some sun on the deck. She looked at me and said "well, you've lost the weight, now you have to work on those thighs". Yep...I'll never forget it. It replays in my head all of the time. So, my thighs will never be what I want them to be.
I've been running for one year now. A year ago, I weighed between 151 and 152. My highest ever except when I was pregnant. I was down and didn't know what else to do. I complained about it every day to my husband. That's when I started running and I dropped about 20 pounds. Currently, I weight around 133. I did get down to 130 and I often fluctuate between 130 and 135. I'm happy with that. Yep, I'm ok with it. My thighs might still bug me, but the overall picture is good. I worked hard to get back here and I'm going to be proud of it!